End of 2011

As of now, it's December 31st. Even though this post was started at around midnight, the post's date will still show up as the 30th. Nyeh. Something like this happened last year too for my New Year's post, making the date show up as December 31st even though it was past 12 am, January 1st. XD Anyways..

I don't know if I should feel relieved or sad that a year like 2011 is ending. So many things have happened this year. I've definitely made some good memories, of course with some painful or annoying memories mixed in every now and then. Those are some things people can never avoid completely though, so it's fine. My favorite memory of the year has to be when I got Shiro. I still can't decide on my worst memory.

Reflecting on this past year I realize that although I tried to succeed at first, I failed the two resolutions I decided on last December 31st. Maybe they were unreasonable resolutions considering my personality and the habits I've had for years. This time I'll try to make more reasonable resolutions.. but at the same time I wont forget about my procrastination resolution. I really need to get rid of my habit of procrastinating or who knows how badly I'll do in college. =_=; So~

Resolution 1: Learn to play guitar and bass
I got Rocksmith for Christmas this year with the guitar and everything, so I'm hoping to learn to play it well by the end of the year. And hopefully in music class at school I'll learn to play the bass well too~!

Resolution 2: Become more focused in anything related to school
It seems that something may have depressed me somehow either last year or this year. I didn't notice my slight depression until a very observant friend, and then my mother, pointed out the possibility to me. Because of that slight depression, (I still don't know the cause of it) I've been slacking off in school and procrastinating more than usual.. Or rather, more than I should be allowed to. I've been told that Junior-year is the most important year in high school but it's the year that I've gotten the worst grades in all my life. I hope by the end of this year I overcome that and become a lot more focused on schoolwork.

Resolution 3: Be less negative/More positive~!

I had been blaming school for how negative I've become toward a lot of things, or even life itself. It's most likely that depression I mentioned earlier, but anyway.. My third resolution is to think of everything in a more positive way so that my negative thoughts don't turn into something more serious. =_=;

Resolution 4: To make this year the best year of my life so far.

In a reasonable way. Not in a stupidly reckless way. I'm gonna work twice as hard to make more happy memories so that instead of seeing every passing year as worse than the prior one, I'll see this year as the best one in a long time.

Resolution 5: Stop Procrastinating.
'Nuff said. I have nothing more to say about this one since I'll probably fail it again-- ah, wait. But that's being negative.. =.=; I'll still try!

I wonder if I'll accomplish any of my resolutions this time.
With this post, I bid you farewell 2011. Happy New Year 2012 everyone~!

15 Day Challenge: Day 13, 14, and 15.

Because if I drag this on any longer or don't finish this eventually, this is gonna haunt me somehow...
I'll post the remaining 3 'days' in one since they're so short. I probably should have combined everything since Day 11. xD

3 Ways To Make You Cry

1. Hurt an animal in front of me. (Example: Kick a puppy)

2. Shove an onion in my face / poke me in the eyes.

3. Seriously hurt my feelings.

LOLWHUT
It's actually not very easy to make cry anymore ._.

2 Ways To Win Your Heart
1. Respect? Don't disrespect me in public. That's not cool, it's embarrassing more than anything. D: (LolDomesticEmotionalViolencewhut) So basically if you can acknowledge my existence as an actual human being,.. yeah ;3

2. You'd have to like me for my personality more than anything, not just because of my face or my physical appearance or whatever.

..But I don't actually think my appearance would play a part in any of that really, because of my self esteem and all that jazz xD

1 Thing You Need To Say

1. ...The most epic way to die would be to spontaneously combust, so I think that's the way I want to die. xD

15 Day Challenge: Day 12

4 Bad Things About You

1. I don't necessarily act like a mature human being most of the time.

2. I'm a procrastinator.

3. I daydream or zone out too much.

4. I get distracted by other things easily.

15 Day Challenge: Day 11

5 Good Things About You

1. Even if I procrastinate to the last minute, I still manage to get all my work done somehow. If not on time, then eventually

2. I can multitask.

3. I can cook/bake stuff and not food-poison someone in the process, I guess. Still waiting for that to happen.

4. I don't get easily annoyed by most people.

5. I work well under pressure and best when I've barely had any sleep. (I'm just weird like that -_-;)

Christmas Again~?

With the start of December, Most people started putting up their Christmas trees. Most people have already put up decorations to prepare for the upcoming holidays. Most people are looking forward to the presents they'll be getting at the end of the month.

I, on the other hand, am only anticipating my extra hours of sleep, and the time away from school, that comes with my week of Christmas break. All I'm asking for is to have more that 3 hours of sleep per day. I have absolutely no motivation left to do anything school related.

But anyways, since we were on the topic of 'wanting things for Christmas', ... What are you looking forward to getting this Christmas? It's most likely a material object rather than sleep, huh? But no matter what you're asking for this year, remember to be grateful for whatever you get. Someone out there worked hard to save up the money to buy what they got you. Or, in cases like mine, What you get may only be temporary. So appreciate it while you can.
..Vacation-Sleep is only temporary.
How depressing.

..I remember when I used to think Christmas was free-toy-day as a little kid~. I used to believe in Santa and everything. My tiny dreams were crushed when I was in third or fourth grade though... I honestly thought my mom was lying to me when she told me the truth, That's how much I believed in it. xD But even after I realized she wasn't lying to me, it's been a 'tradition' of sorts, to bake cookies for Santa like before. (Santa, meaning Dad. lawl)

This year, with Shiro joining the family, Christmas might be a little different. It's his first Christmas, so he's confused about the Christmas tree in the house. And the Christmas decorations he sees outside all over the place whenever we go out for walks. The "sniff-sniff-what's-that?-Can-I eat-it-or-pee-on-it" kind of confused.
 I think I'm gonna get him one of those treat/toy stocking bag thingies from Petco too, so he doesn't miss out on the presents. xD

The other day we got him a doggy Santa suit, so I'll post a pic of him wearing it when it's Christmas.

15 Day Challenge: Day 10

6 Things You'll Never Do

1. I'll never betray a friend's trust

2. I'll never spill a secret I've been told to keep

3. I'll never get over my addiction to music / drawing

4. I'll never stop playing video games or going on the computer whenever I have spare time

5. I'll never learn to stop procrastinating

6. I'll never lie to the people that are most important to me

15 Day Challenge: Day 9

7 Things You Want To Do

1. I want to finish/beat every video game I own

2. I want to meet some of my online friends one day

3. I want to see a friend I haven't seen in a very very long time

4. I want to finish all of my homework quickly before my brain explodes

5. I want to be able to eat endless amounts of sweets and not get diabetes or something. XD

6. I want to learn to drive. But I'm still too lazy to accomplish that. xD

7. I want to get a part-time job. But despite really needing the money, just the thought of having to go look for one is making me procrastinate on finding one. 

15 Day Challenge: Day 8

8 Things You're Known For

1. Wearing hoodies/scarves/band T-shirts

2. Not wearing skirts/dresses very often

3. Being too quiet compared to other people

4. Always eating something sugary instead of normal food

5. Getting good grades

6. Being spontaneously random/awkward

7. Being a procrastinator

8. My computer and video game addictions

15 Day Challenge: Day 7

9 Things That Make You Happy
Not in any particular order, to be honest xD
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1. Being able to talk to my friends, especially if I haven't spoken to them in a long time.

2. Being able to play video games for an entire day. (which never seems to happen lately D: busy busy~)

3. Not having Homework

4. Does Shiro count as a thing? o-o Shiro makes me happy! xD

5. Energy drinks (Amp, Monster, etc~)

6. Getting a new book / video game

7. Snow/Rain

8. Sweets (Candy, Chocolate, etc~)

9. Coffee

15 Day Challenge: Day 6

Day 6: 10 Things You Do When You're bored.

1. I go on the computer and start talking to people on Skype.

2. I play a video game I haven't played in a long time.

3. I listen to music / look for new music that I haven't heard before.

4. I start drawing something.

5. I annoy my brother or my mom with my stupidity and randomness. xD

6. I check my email or facebook, since I barely go on those things.

7. I play with Shiro if he's not already hanging out with my brother.

8. I read a book or something interesting online.

9. I take a nap.

10. I do homework. Only if all else fails.

Where has all the motivation gone? ._.

Just a few minutes ago I sat down at the computer with a cup of cinnamon tea, and thought about how I've been such a terrible blog-owner lately. XD I'm an irresponsible one really.

It's literally been months since I last wrote anything here, and I figured since I have a 4-day weekend, I should get off my lazy ass and update something on here before I forget about this blog completely.

Looking back at all the posts I wrote a while back, I realize that despite the occasional whining and complaining, my life during the last school year, my sophomore year, was probably a lot better than it will be this year. With all the things going on in my life now, and two new boring AP classes on top of that, I realized that I need to straighten my life back out again somehow. Especially since all I feel like doing is sleeping and slacking off. Meh. It's only September though. So slacking off a little probably wouldn't hurt..

There have been a lot of things I could have updated this blog thing with in the past few months, like my first concert, or how I miraculously passed the AP World History exam last year without actually reading the entire textbook as thoroughly as I should have. But I've been too lazy to update and I ended up spending the summer play video games, watching anime, reading manga,... the usual good stuff. XD 

So with AP English and AP U.S. History to worry about, I may be posting even less compared to last year, if at all. I'm still determined to finish that 15 day challenge thingy that I sorta put on hiatus though. And then I'll go back to regular posts if I have time.

On another note, Since my last post was about Shiro, I might as well update you all on how he's doing too! xD He's 8 months old now. My baby's grown up so fast~ <3 :D He's like three times bigger than when we got him, and he almost takes up an entire car seat now. He's a car seat hog. xD

He's still a pretty small dog though, so he's still as adorable as he was the first day we got him. With all the energy he has and the adorable sounds he makes, playing with him is becoming one of my favorite ways to pass the time. xD 

Shiro-cam time~

For multiple reasons, I was forced to put the 15-Day-Challenge thing on hiatus temporarily.

And I almost forgot about writing the post about my puppy. o-o So a big thank you to Janet for reminding me~! xD I ended up getting the Maltese puppy, just as planned~ X3 His name's Shiro! :D Credit for the name goes to Janet as well~ <3

He's 11 weeks old now and he's absolutely adorable~ :D He's grown a lot the past week and a half that I've had him. x3

I ended up recording him earlier today, so now you guys can see him in action! :D My voice might sound a little weird though because I've be sick for the past couple of days. Mute the video if you want, I might get annoying after a while. xD;

15 Day Challenge: Day 5

This post is probably gonna make me sound mean.. xD;; Geez..

Day 5: 11 signs you're not into someone

1. I would avoid having to hang out with that person too much.

2. I wouldn't feel comfortable getting too many hugs from that person. Or a lot of physical contact in general.

3. I would never feel comfortable being in a room alone with that person. And I wouldn't even bother to break the ice when I'm with them.

4. I'd ignore that person a lot. Purposely, if I really dislike them. Or simply not notice them at all.

5. I wouldn't feel comfortable talking to that person. I'd avoid having to talk to them as much as I can, if I specifically dislike that person.

6. I wouldn't smile much around that person if i really didn't like them, because being around them in general would be really awkward for me.

7. I'd easily be annoyed by that person

8. If I really dislike them, that person would never become one of my close friends and it would take me a reasonably long time to learn their name since I wouldn't bother to memorize it right away. 

9. I'd rather be around other people, or the person I actually like, instead of that person

10. I'd easily get bored being around that person or lose interest in them right away

11. If my dislike for them becomes unbearable, I'd have to be honest with them or give them some kind of hint that I dislike them.

15 Day Challenge: Day 4

Ahh the dreaded 4th post. Let's see if I can actually come up with anything for this one xD;

Day 4: 12 signs you're into someone

>.>...

1. I'd either talk to that person a lot..

2. Or not talk to them at all because I'd be all shy and quiet, for fear of saying something that'll make that person think I'm weird or something. Because I'm really good at making myself look unattractive.

3. I wouldn't make eye-contact much. And when I do, I'd quickly look away. xD; It's the shyness, I really cant. 

4. Just seeing that person would make my day and they'd be on my mind a lot.

5. Since I have pretty low self-esteem, I'd probably be really self-conscious about myself while I'm around that person xD;

6. But if I've known that person for a while and we become close, maybe I'd become really comfortable being around that person all the time.

7. I'd catch myself looking at that person every now and then. Or a lot. XD

8. I'd probably mention that person in a conversation without meaning to. Because they'd randomly pop into my mind a lot.

9. I'd be smiling like a retard/loser a lot when I'm around that person

10. I'd get all fidgety when I'm around that person if I'm still in the shy stages.

11. I'd want that person to be happy no matter what~

12. I'd do anything for that person~ Just not anything unreasonable. ._.; Like favors and stuff if they ask.

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The challenge numbers are getting smaller, yaaay~ xD

15 Day Challenge: Day 3

Let me see if I can actually make this awkward somehow.

Day 3 : 13 ways you break the ice

1. If it's in a dead chatroom, I use a random smiley..

2. ...or a random word/sound-effect thing.

3. In RL, I'd say anything random that comes to mind.

4. I'd try changing the subject, although I epic-fail at that since I'm not a good conversation starter.

5. Bringing up the actual reason behind the ice usually ends up breaking it entirely by the end of the conversation.

6. I poke people randomly. To get their mind off whatever's making them quiet or zone out.

7. I stare at the person long enough to get one of us to laugh or twitch or something. xD (ಠ_ಠ)

8. I'd make a face at the person, just to throw them off somehow xD

9. Causing Confusion. Is the best way to break the ice. C8

10. In awkward silence, I'd say 'I'm hungry', or "I want (insert sweet food here)" just for the sake of randomness.

11. If all else fails and you can't break or smash that ice, melt that ice. Melt it.

12. I'd pull out a bag of chips or food or something, so that I can lure them into talking to me again. Maybe I'd offer some food first, or they'll ask me for some themselves. Usually there's a conversation about food afterwards so there isn't any ice anymore.

13. Last Resort: Pull out a hammer. "Don't make meh pull out that hammer! D8< SPEAAAAAAK ALREADY." Hammers break ice.

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Overall, I'm still a pretty awkward person to be around though. xD Awkward silences happen a lot. But I like silences like that, so for me it really isn't awkward. But for the other person it can be.
I don't know how to function in society. Q___Q

Ah~ I'll have to post "12 signs you're into someone" next. >.>; Poo. That's gonna be a harder post to write. =.=;

15 Day Challenge: Day 2

Time for the 14 not so-basic facts for the challenge~ Some of these are based on questions I was asked by Janet, or dares I've been given.

Day 2: 14 Not so basic facts

1. When I'm depressed, I tend to keep things to myself for a long time until I feel like I've calmed down a bit. Then I'd tell someone I'm really close to, if it seems relevant to them in some way. At the moment I only go to Janet for serious things like that though. xD

2. A 'secret' passion I've had is art. Most people think the only passion I have is becoming a surgeon, but ever since I was able to teach myself to draw, art became one of the biggest stress releases and another passion of mine. I guess it's a secret one since people I'm not close to don't specifically know about that interest unless they ask or find out from someone else. Unless you're a close friend or you know me well enough to tell from my personality, you most likely wont ever find out about that.

3. I'm easily annoyed by people that fail at being random. It's very rare for me to find someone like that though.

4. My mission in life is to annoy people with my randomness without exactly failing at being random. Or to be the most awkward person you will ever know. xD

5. My mood changes easily and randomly on certain days. Particularly if I'm having a bad day or a bad week. One moment I can be all happy-happy-joy-joy, and the next I can be so pissed off I avoid every living human I know. I'm unpredictable in a predictable kind of way.

6. I'm easily amused by people's physical pain. Don't mistake that with the emotional kind though. If someone I know is depressed it's not amusing to me at all. o-o

7. I can crack a walnut with my bare hand. *shot* Hunger makes you desperate. Pff- *shot again* Nah, that was actually a dare by my brother. Since apparently to my brother, I'm strong enough that it gets to the scary point. xD

8. In my entire life, I've only had about four RL friends, from elementary/middle school, that I can actually consider a close friend so far. And it's most likely because of that, that I've never actually been in a relationship before. XD Forever alone.~~

9. I'm a mix of American (if you can consider that a culture), Ecuadorian, German, and French.

10. I usually never back down from a dare or a challenge. Unless it's absolutely impossible for me to do it. 

11. I'm not athletic. Because I don't like to do anything that counts as exercise really. I'm THAT lazy. The only sport I can play without killing myself (or someone else) is Tennis. But even then, I'm not exactly good at it in my opinion. xD

12. I get attached to people too easily so now I tend to push them away a lot if they try to get too close when I first meet them. That's why I don't have a lot of close friends. xD

13. I like taking pictures of people,sure. But I don't like to be in the pictures. xD Because I'm not photogenic, and I'm never satisfied with how it turns out really. Nyeh.

14. Getting sugar-high gets my brain working. So whenever I have homework or some kind of test, I eat candy~ =u= It's my brain fuel. I can't do homework or tests without it. @-@

15 Day Challenge: Day 1

I've accepted Zetta's challenge~! So for the next fifteen days of posts, I'll be spamming you all with random stuffs from this.. Anyways~ This post is for Day 1 :3

Day 1: 15 Basic Facts About You

1. My favorite color's red
2. I spend all my free time playing video games or using the computer.
3. I was born on the 21st day of the 2nd month, 16 years ago~~ Lolwhut.
4. I like sweet things :3
5. I'm addicted to music. Like I can't do homework without it.
6. I like to draw.
7. I tend to overwork myself a lot and then regret it later when I get no sleep.
8. I procrastinate a lot. A lot is an understatement.
9. I'm terrified of heights and insects.
10. I want to learn to play guitar or piano eventually.
11. I'm in the process of learning a third language and I want to learn about five more xD
12. I like to cook and eat. So even though I appear skinny on the outside, I'm a fat person on the inside.
13. I'm really quiet/shy around people I don't know too well. Or around most people in general in real life.
14. ...but I'm loud/annoying/not shy around the few people I am close to or have known for a while. xD
15. I like anime/manga :3

These are pretty much the first 15 things I could think of, but if you know me well enough, you should have expected or known about most, or all 15, of these.
Tomorrow I'll post the 14 not-so-basic facts. ;3
And now I challenge anyone else who read this to do it too~! :D

The End.

I have... less than twenty-four hours left to live. Not really. But either way, I'm so behind on AP stuff my parents will end me once the report card comes and they see how terrible my grade must be. T^T  I have like ten different things left. Not even exaggerating. And then I have to catch up to English stuff too... So no Skype for me for a while.

The end of the marking period came too soon! DX

I'm off again to attempt to finish it all. x_x; Most likely a failed sleepless attempt anyway.

EDIT: Janet! D8  I forgot to mention. That I FROZE YOGURT. In mah freezer. And ate it. So now you can't say I've never eaten frozen yogurt before. >^>

EDIT2: Wait. Nevermind, Ikea has real frozen yogurt. I've had some of THAT before too. XD

Birthday

I know this is like a day late, but I'm still being asked about how my birthday was. XD So I'll just write a general post about that, since I dont really have anything else to write about really.
...I'm 16 now, I feel old T^T But I'll always remain a 5-year-old at heart. =3=;
And at least now I'll be able to learn to drive~! But I'm lazy so who knows when THAT'll get done.

So yesterday was pretty good. I think this was the first time in a looong time that I wasn't in a terrible mood in the morning. xD I got to hang out with a cousin, so that was pretty much the highlight of the day. The cake was good too. And you know how much I love cake.

XD

But I gotta say, what caught me off-guard the most was my parents' present this year. o-o;

I honestly thought they were joking when they said they could consider getting me a puppy since I've never gotten anything that huge for a birthday before. xD I've wanted one since I was like 5, but they've never agreed to getting me one until now. o-o

Happiness~~~ We still need to get the puppy though. We haven't yet because we're still in the process of getting his/her stuff. But it looks like the decision is a definite yes since we've already started buying things.
They agreed to get me a Maltese! :D The kind that doesn't grow much and stays relatively small. *spazzflail* My week has been made.

Happy Valentine's Day~! :D

A.K.A. "Single-awareness" day for those of you who are single, like me~! xDD

Ah~ Where do I start... Geez, it's like a second Halloween, with all the chocolate and stuff! XD All day at school I saw tons of teddies, people with flowers, and people with chocolates and stuff~ Hell, there were a lot of random rose petals on the floors by the end of the day. xDD

I honestly didn't expect to get anything, but two friends of mine ended up giving me chocolate/panda cookies too. :D That made my day. I got chocolate from dad too. :3

Valentine's day is exactly a week before my birthday so that means I have less than 7 days left to be a 15-year-old.. Nyuuu~! I'm getting old. D8

Ah~! And I changed the layout to something new, because the comments in the other layout weren't working, apparently. Aside from that, everything at home's starting to calm down lately. ...But of course, there will never be an end to the homework. xD; I should seriously start to work on that soon. @_@;

It's a Winter Wonderland D8

It's so cold outside.. The floors are literally ice now. D8






That's what it looked like this morning from inside my room. The trains weren't working this morning either, and everything's just crazy because of the weather now. xD

So a new semester started yesterday, and I already have new homework assignments stressing me out. ._.; Work, Work, Work~
..But decreasing motivation.
And so sleepless nights of homework and procrastination begin once again~!










I should be getting a copy of my report card tomorrow or the day after. So I'm just dreading that at this point, since i'm pretty sure at least my geometry and/or AP grade is gonna be poo.

In other news~ I got my schedule for the new semester yesterday and I lost one of my free periods to an art class. So now I'll have something interesting to do.
Unless the teacher for it sucks.
Then I'll potentially be forced to hate one of the best classes ever.

And that's pretty much all that's happened the past two days, besides getting question-spammed by Janet on formspring. xD Gotta love the randomness of those questions. <3

...Now it's time to munch on a cinnamon bun and completely forget about that old resolution yet again~. =u=
I can never get tired of these.

What? ANOTHER random post??

There's only ONE other thing that rivals the awesomeness that is coffee. And that's Chai Tea~! :D



I rediscovered my love for it the other day, and I'm addicted to it again. Nothing beats a hot cup of tea when the weather's below-freezing outside. <3
Unless it's coffee.

It's been insanely cold for about two or three weeks straight now, and there's over a foot and a half of snow piled outside. The TV tells me there's supposed to be even more snow soon too. It's gotten to the point where there's a big snow mountain on every street corner around my block, and it seems like every day at least one car has trouble getting out of its parking space. xD I don't think it's snowed this much since I was a baby. That one time when it was pretty much waist-deep. 

On Monday, the last day before our break, I stopped by the Zeppieri bakery with my brother on the way back from school...
The Strawberry Shortcake at that bakery is the best~~. It was good to try some again after so long~. x3
Geez, I can be such an unintentional fatty. XD Everytime I've mentioned food on this thing, it's always about some kind of cake in the end. 

But oh well. What's life without cake.